Just a few mini-revelations and mostly random ramblings I had while I was talking to my friend about SPN and the current hatedom it has over the latest two seasons.

First off, let me just state this for the record: I can understand where the hate for the seasons are coming from, and in a way I can relate - but personally, I can't bring myself to hate the seasons, not when I can see the message I think the show is trying to display. Right from the start (or almost the start), this show has been sort of the concept of 'free will', and about the concept of choice + consequences: the fact that every choice you make always will and have a consequence, and no matter what it is they will not only affect you but other people as well. Its just how things work. Mary made the choice to deal with Azazel, thus resulting in the Winchesters all being played for right from the beginning; John made the choice to be a hunter and raise his sons like one, turning Sam and Dean into who they are now. The show sort of... makes these choices much more heavy, but the theme is still the same: there is always a choice, and for every choice that is a result, a consequence that you have to bear. I think at least its something that's been strongly shown right from the start, but just now more highlighted then ever.

Season six now in general, since its six and seven I'm mostly speaking about now. From the initial five seasons that were supposed to be, it showed how the Winchesters (plus Bobby and Cas) made the decision to go with free will, to stick with family and the world and put an end to the Apocalypse (with much joy and all, since you know - averting the end of the world and all). Season six shows the consequences of this action, of what I quote as 'tearing out the script and burning all the pages'. Its a world where there is no destiny, no fate, no plans - just choice and reason and action and reaction. Some like Balthazar would say its a free world; but just in the other way, its also a world of chaos, and we see that in Heaven. Heaven, where after who-knows-how long suddenly there are no orders and no plans and nobody knows what to do at all--not even Castiel himself.

And therein lies the root of the issue: Cas. For years and years he's been the soldier, the obedient angel who followed every order and every command from his Father without so much as a shred of doubt. But then Dean came, and then he changed all that for Cas and Cas saw the flaws and cracks and how even though the world was falling apart his Father never came at all. As somebody who lived a life without a dad herself, its a feeling I can easily relate to. To know (or at least realize) that your father doesn't care and doesn't want to care, its something that can break anybody - especially to Cas, who's spent so much of his life believing and now sees that it was for nothing. And in that way, here starts downward spiral: Cas, now without faith in anybody, places it in the one other person he can put it in - Dean. We see this all throughout season five, when Cas states how he 'killed three of his brothers this week and rebelled against Heaven, and I did it all for you' - and this is just the start of the season, but it increases more and more until the end, when Cas is pretty much human and the showdown happens.

--but then, the brothers manage to avert the end of the world and... Sam is gone, and Dean is done with hunting. In that same vein, Dean has no reason to have Cas anymore and Cas understands this, which is why he leaves and never contacts Dean, not even when he was desperate in his war against Raphael. After all Dean is done, so why would he help Castiel? In a way, perhaps that is a major failing between them; the fact that they both need each other but don't want to turn to each other. But that's more for shipping, so I'll stop there.

So yeah, season six. Free will is the name of the game, and that's what everybody is going by right now - most of all Castiel himself. But: think of free will as a double-edged sword; for while Castiel has his free will now, he also doesn't know what to do with it as much as the next angel does. Back in season five he's mostly depend on Dean, Bobby and Sam to help him, but now without them he's lost. All he knows is to stop the war with Raphael, but even he doesn't know how to go about it - which then leads him to just doing whatever is necessary, something seen all over season six. Most prominent however could be the one where he got Balthazar to unsink the Titanic, and we can just see how pissed Atropos is about it. Already from there we can see the beginnings of Castiel's drawback - the fact that he uses free will as a tool, and not as something that is part of him. He does what he think is best, but never considers the consequences of his actions. And this is something Dean can see very clearly, and he shows it at season seven, all throughout the first episode.

'A child' is what he calls Cas, and that is very true: because Cas had been a child, a kid who refuses to listen to reason and insists that he is right. He knows this because he's been through Sam, and he's a big brother: he can see this kind of bullshit when it happens, and he's calling Castiel out on it. Castiel found his free will, but he used it wrongly and made a very bad choice, and now its biting him back hard in the ass. (Which makes me weep, because sooooob.) In a way this is worse than Sam with his demon blood, because at least that could have been reversible, but this? The magnitude of what Castiel has done? Its too much and way too big, and both Dean and Cas know that - and after everything, its understandable how tired Dean is of it. He's spent all of season six believing that Cas could be the better man, but Castiel abused that trust and went downhill quick. Although, yeah, he's being an ass about it - but at the same time, I can see where all that anger is coming from. Cas isn't Sam, after all, and Dean really tried to extend the trust he had to the angel, but Castiel didn't appreciate it at all, and I think perhaps that's what really has Dean so bitter.

...with all of that said, Leviathan!Cas is going to be absolutely fucking crazy, and Misha is already putting his evil mojo on it which is excellent. It'll be interesting to see how this plays out now, and I do hope that Castiel can still be around in some capacity - maybe in another vessel, or something? I'm just keeping my fingers crossed, but all the same: I hope this works out well in the end, although a part of me isn't trying to keep up hope. If they can have the intention of putting Sam away (before Season 6 changed that), then they can do the same to Cas too.

:c

And now I should get back to my big bang fic.