Journalling and stuff is so dead these days, hahaha. As always I'm hanging out on Plurk, so for people here who want to see me more beyond very sparse updates feel free to friend me on knightblazer.

ANYWAY. Inspired by one of my friends, I will be doing an age meme tl;dr ahead, so be warned.

( This is a fair bit of stuff to go through. )

Right so. SUPER DUPER LATE mostly because RL ate me and stuff, but here I am finally showing photos and stuff about my trip to USA back in July. Yeah, it's December already. Go figure.

ANYWAY. For those not in the loop, I managed to get myself into a three week workshop thing over at Cedar Rapids, Iowa during most of July. That's also the time when I joined somarium which I will blame Michele for once again. Seriously, who the hell flies halfway across the bloody world just to put in an app (especially after not RPing for over a year??)? Never do that, guys, btw. It never ends well.

( Blah blah blah tl;dr and photos and stuff. )

THERE, now we're done. /rolls off to do other stuff

WONDERFUL USA. I have just returned home and unpacked my stuff and everything, annnd I will get about to doing a write up soon. But major highlights:

• Walmart
  
• 4th of July!
  
• Getting sick (again)
  
• Working for Habitat for Humanity
  
• SEEING BARACK OBAMA
  
• Going to an arcade and playing laser tag
  
• In where everybody besides KB shopped
  
• Dubuque: Street Elevator and cruising down the Mississippi River
  
• Teams
  
• WONDERFUL CHICAGO
  
• Meeting Levi '^'

But basically if you want a short version of everything: tl;dr it was amazing, fun, and awesome and I really want to go back there again.

Heading off to the airport now and fly off to the great US of A! It will be a massively long trip (about 25 hours sob) but the experience will be... pretty grand, I hope. After all, its not everyday that you get to go to the other side of the world.

So yeah, heading out now! See you folks over in Iowa. :D

Mostly ramblings here, so feel free to skip this.

( Cut for tl;dr to the max )

And thaaaat should be it. IDK, more will come in time I guess.

There are a lot of things one can say when its your own birthday. Another year has passed, you've grown a little older and hopefully a little wiser. There's still lots of things looking ahead of you and maybe even resolutions to make for your own future. You ask for presents and gifts or whatever – which, really, is all in your ability to ask for on this day – and you just do something crazy to validate yourself for this special day or something like that. IDK, my own birthdays have mostly been quiet.

For me, though, to be able to be here now and write this post perhaps has a lot more meaning then I can truly comprehend. One year ago right on this day, I almost died. As most of you guys know I was in Thailand around this time last year, and it was during that trip that my appendix burst and pretty much put me in a state of emergency. I had my operation on this very day – the operation that pretty much saved my life. (For those unaware, its pretty much game over for you once your appendix bursts – unless you have it cleaned out in an operation). While the operation itself isn't the big thing, its the little things that led up to me which saved me. From the driver who insisted on sending me to the private hospital instead and the doctor who did the operation anyway even though my mother forgot to take her credit card... seriously, had just one thing gone wrong I don't think I could be here today, writing this post and once again think just how lucky I am to be still alive right now.

One year has passed since that fateful day, and a lot of things have happened – I'm doing well in school for the first time ever, I've found my passion in writing again (even if it is for an admittedly crazy fandom), got close friends and I think, for the first time, I'm truly happy to be who I am. There have been bumps and there are still bumps I am going through, but like on Sunday when my family celebrated my birthday for pretty much the first time ever in my life, I just stop and think how fortunate I am. I'm still alive, and my folks still do care for me in their own way. It's not perfect, but nothing is anyway, and as far as I'm concerned, I am content with what I have now.

This is all a little mushy and everything, I know, but I think I really need to get this out. One year ago I would have not make it today, but yet here I am now accomplished and content and feeling alive for the first time in years, and I think just how worth it everything in my last year has been. I may not know my future – and I have no qualms about wanting to know – but for me right now in the present? I'm pretty damned happy.

Back in Singapore and home. Bed, I have missed you. Awkward pauses with mom, not so much. But that is how things will roll, I suppose.

Anyway, one more week of holidays. Might as well get my writing in order and try to pound out something for spn_j2_bigbang. After this break maybe I might just be able to meet the cut off mark in time... hopefully, at least. OTL

I maintained my GPA!! ;A; So legit happy right now man, you guys don't even know. IT FEELS SO GOOD TO SEE THAT. All my hard work has paid off. ;;;

And yes, I am still at Kae's. Manila has been awesome thus far. I also finally got to touch a PS3 ;w;

Heading off to the Philippines in about an hour! I'll be there all the way until the end of March, so will be officially back in April. I should be popping in from time to time though, since I'm going to be crashing with izkariote/thedovetailor after the weekend. c:

See you later, folks!

So. The posting day for my jimmybigbang is coming up on Sunday, so I figured I can leave this would-have-been here. Basically, this scene was in the initial idea of the story, which also included John and Kali and Orpheus as the OC rather than A DRAGON. Basically Jimmy was like... idk, Minato from P3 or something because he could see ~bonds~ and there was this whole string of fate theme going on and you can obviously see why I decided to drop all of this altogether.

Buuut it doesn't change the fact that I wrote about 10k of this before rewriting it altogether - although a lot of the stuff was reused, but I already did write the scene when the group meets Orpheus which obviously wasn't going to happen anymore, so... uh, you know, I'll just put it here for people to look at if they're interested.

( I chooseth this fate of mine own free will. )

ALL THE PERSONA 3 vibes. Maybe I should just write that Dean/Cas P3 AU I had in mind, it might actually motivate me to write something... orz

My grandmother just passed away earlier.

I won't be around much for the next few days, but if you really need to contact me send me an e-mail or shoot a PM. I'll try to reply whenever I can.

OH GOD is it the 12th already fuuu--LESS THAN A WEEK LEFT TO THE POSTING AT jimmybigbang I AM VERY NERVOUS AND EXCITE. DX That also means I really need to stop dying and actually edit the fic oh god this is why procrastination is my greatest enemy. SO NOW. TO DO LIST FOR THE WEEK.

- Finish dc_everafter fic by hook or by crook by the next weekend. (Current status: 1/3 done)
- Edit Jimmy Big Bang; one chapter per day, more if possible. (Classes to abuse: Tues & Thurs mornings).
- CONTACT PEOPLE CONSTANTLY and be prepared to do grovelling.
- PANIC DANCE
- Also start on documents for school, especially that play testing questionnaire (due Weds).
- Stop playing Birth by Sleep and actually work dear god self.

ahhhhhh there are no words on everything now ahhhhh. /)_(\ SO NERVOUS.

Posted this on my tumblr and plurk a day or so back, but I figured I'd share this around here as well.

( So yes, I just stuffed SPN into my project work. )

Basically as you can see, I was more or less inspired by the Season 2 finale for this thing. It's... not like the real thing at all, but finding custom 3D meshes that are free and can work are hard and I really needed to more or less make do with the stuff that the engine itself provided for me.

Considering all of that, I think I did a decent job in this. Hopefully. OTL

Like, very bad. Partly due to laziness, but also because of very bad luck.

Anyway, I am going to make myself replay Birth By Sleep, because 1) I never finished it and 2) my firmware crashed on me before I could and my save file is epically corrupted. Also, sitting on the side of the road for three hours with little else to do for the next two days doesn't give me much in the way of matters.

So yes. Replaying now since I have little else to play these days... and I finished The Third Birthday twice because Jensen Ackles does fantablous voice acting.

Today, I have finally finished the monster fic that is my entry for gabriel_bigbang and the wordcount for that ran up to 101,821 words. There is nothing I can really say to this achievement, except that editing time is going to be very, very hectic. OTL

That aside, with things moving on okay enough my new writing projects go here.

dc_everafter: The thing that I'll be getting to on Thursday onwards, and I'll be going on a pretty tight schedule with this; I only pretty much have this weekend to come up with something, and hopefully it will be enough. I watched The Lake House earlier today already, so at least my memory's refreshed on the movie.

spn_j2_bigbang: One of the last two challenges I'm going to put myself for this year, the other being the Dean/Cas BB. Thanks to spamming with black_catxiii/infinitechallenge I have a pretty solid plot line to roll with this, so once I'm done with the one above I'll prolly work on this over the holidays. I'm pretty worn out after the monsters I've produced for both the Jimmy and Gabriel BBs, so a short-ish fic will be best for me.

deancastiel: I've claimed a prompt for the comm's Everlasting Birthday Challenge, but since its all the way to August 10th I don't need to worry about it too much just yet. I'll try to do it when the inspiration strikes, but I don't foresee it being too long so it should be okay. I hope.

deancasbigbang: Sign ups haven't opened yet for this, but I'm planning to join (and this should be the last challenge I'm going to join for the year) - I've got the plot for this pretty ironed out in a Google Doc, so I might kick start this as soon as I've signed up. This one has a pretty good chance of being a monster fic too, so I'll need to get on this ASAP.

Novakcest Case!Fic: A fic that's been brewing in my head for a good long while, and after being enabled encouraged by a few people it's going to be my casual side project to work on when I don't want to feel the stress of all the challenges I'm doing. It's a rendition of 3.10 where Jimmy and Jacob go/return to MIT respectively, and Joseph is the magnificent bastard who kills people in their dreams. There will also be porn at the end. Possibly.

Dean/Cas AU oneshots: A few scenarios/AUs I've thought up that I do want to get out from my system when the mood strikes, most notably P3 (Cas as the Protag and Dean in the Mitsuru-esque role), P4 (in where Cas and Dean are partners solving the murders and Sam happens to be the Fool this time round), Animorphs (Dean as Jake, Cas as Ax... yep), WoW (Cas as a dragon ala Korialstraz and Dean being a prince/kinght/something), Breath of Fire III (Dean as Ryu and Cas as Nina hahahaha) and also Neopets crack!fic, just for kicks.

Yep, I write way too much for my own good... sigh.

Because I might as well put them somewhere more easily found than tumblr. Hahaha.

( one season five, one season two, two snippets for that eventual 3.10 fic. )

HAPPY 2012 EVERYBODY. I hope you all have an awesome year ahead, first of all. ♥

Anyway. Inspired by Neb's post. Since I am going into fanfic writing (mostly for SPN, but shh), I figure putting down a list of my own fandoms might do me some good too. Obviously, this isn't a complete list (as I know I'll be forgetting things) nor does it reflect all of my interests. Some fandoms I simply enjoy for aesthetic beauty more than anything else, and those that I do intend/might intend to write for will be in bold.

( Somewhat tl;dr list under the cut. )

Transported my SPN stuff over to DW for the most part since they have a bigger post limit, and made a nice comm (mightyenas!) to house my little puppies. I'll prolly post there as well now, along with inktrain and yada yada yada.

ANYWAY, testing out the crossposting thing. Anybody around who still hasn't added me, feel free to add me on knightblazer at Dreamwidth.

...yeah, I have the most original username. W/e, I've wanted to have this name since forever.